Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

Friday, December 05, 2014

From the Park Bench (it's coming!)



“When we reject the single story, when we realize that there is never a single story about any place, we regain a kind of paradise.”
Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

OMG, it's coming.
The publisher (Red Giant Press) said the hard copy proof is in the mail.

This manuscript has stretched and grown over 20 years.  From my time as Public Information Officer at the Cuyahoga Metropolitan Housing Authority through an uncountable number of school visits and conversations with folks, I have taken a lot of notes.  A whole lot of notes. 

There is never just one side to any story, there are always at least two and usually many more.  A fact we have seen playing out on our televisions over these past months (and years).   I don't pretend to have answers to the misunderstandings, I have just listened to the stories.

So has evolved these short poetic dialogues, two voices looking at the same subject from diverse viewpoints.   Democracy, politicking, mother instinct, privatization, welfare, and getting schooled are among the topics.  

For those who read my children's books, I thank you heartily, but advise that this is not the book for you.  This is a book for adults, and hopefully high school students.

For those who have heard my adult poetry, you will hear a familiar line here and there.  I have not borrowed from those poems, rather those poems borrowed from this manuscript, the mother-ship, that has been festering on my hard drive for years, gnawing at me.  As I recently observed to an audience at YALSA, you don't have to be crazy to write poetry, but it does help if you hear voices.

I have never been so excited to go looking for typos.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Why Do You Write Sad Poems?


Why do you write sad poems?

Defensive answer: I don't ONLY write sad poems. Did you see the one about how happiness comes hopping? Or the one about saying gross things at the dinner table? Funny stuff.  Seriously funny. Not sad. Not sad at all.

Self-conscious answer: Oh, no. That didn't make YOU sad, did it?  I'm so sorry. It's just that. . . no, seriously, I'm really really sorry.

Have had a lot of years to think about it answer: It makes me feel better. Seriously.

No Way

In a swirl of nothing
Saturday
lay
inhaling hours
of in between.
What mood is this?
Lost? Collapsed?
Left out? Just tired?
Leftover scraps
of expectation
now outgrown.
Of disappointments
overblown.
Speech bubbles
of stifled screams.
Drifting clouds.
Unticketed dreams.

Writing a poem is a way to tuck sad feelings in, kiss them on the forehead, and turn the klieg lights out on them.






Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Sweet (Ah-choo) Mysteries of Life


Ah-choo!  Sweet mystery of sneeze, at last I’ve found thee
Ah-choo!  I know at last the secret of it all
All the sniffing, coughing, dripping, swelling, burning
The sneezing chokes and tissues that are fall.

For these burning lids, the swollen eyes are seeking
Less pollen in the air, less sinus drain,
For as bright asters in the fields are blooming
the burning hope for victims is some rain.

Asters. Not the Astors of New York, but the asters of the meadow. Golden rod, it looks too cheery and it makes so many of us weepy.  One of life's great mysteries.  And once I thought of this song yesterday and started to noodle about parody lyrics, I couldn't get it out of my head.  Maybe if I pass it along, I can banish it from my brain.

Friday, September 12, 2014

Thinking Small


"The more specific your story, the more universal the message."  I'm not sure who said that first, but it is one of those truisms that keeps me revising and revising -- always for more detail.

In lots of areas we are told to THINK BIG and THE SKY'S THE LIMIT, but in poetry we think small. So, I don't know if this poem makes me the most poetical person on the planet, or just plain small.  Just one more little thing to keep me...scratching.

Thinking Small

The careless shoulder shrug.
Throat tickles in the night.
The eyes that drift astray.
A shadow standing in my light.
Friends playing games instead of talking.
Forks scraped between closed teeth.
Fake smiles,
clothes in piles.
Unmatched socks,
ticking clocks.
Searching for lost keys.
Little things that make my teeth itch.
Metaphoric fleas.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Doppler Effects



And this was not the worst of it.  This was just what was still in the skies at 4AM this morning.  It is almost cheating to fall back on writing about the weather, but jeez louise, what a night!


Doppler Effects

Whirlwinds swirled,
sirens wailed,
arrows rained,
vibrations rocked the clouds.
In flashy strobes
trees partied hard,
ducked and waved,
danced in place,
and reveled through the night
as sleep,
like crispy leaves
took flight.

Today's prediction? I believe the trees and I will be having a wee nap this afternoon.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

The Ride

The Ride

After you’ve climbed the hill
to see the view,
then slid down the other side,
after you’ve skinned both knees,
broken bones,
and cracked your helmet twice,
after you’ve tasted the rush
of passing through
in front, behind, beside,
what choice is there
but to climb back up,
pump the pedals, and ride?




It was three years ago this month that I had "the accident," but that was really just one in a series of head bangers that life has thrown at me.

As a pre-birthday present to myself, I am up and pedaling, with slightly wider tires, which sounds like a metaphor for maturity, but it is really just the facts. Thank you Michael for the new tires, thank you Becky for the bike on extended loan, and thanks to a lovely fall day.

Tuesday, September 09, 2014

Tripping


Day 2 of my week long personal poetry challenge.

Let me just point out that this is not poetry month.  It is not write a novel in a month month, and it is not even the week taxes are due, which historically has been a great inspiration for me to write poetry instead of getting down to business.  I would never be compliant enough to do such an organized writing assignment. I am a poetry procrastinator. A putter offer. Keeper of a wayward, meandering mind. Truth.

But my cousin Lisa Lofthouse does a 30 day Yoga challenge and my friend Amy VanDerwater did a 360 day poetry challenge, so I started this week thinking surely I could so a weeklong challenge before ADHD lead me astray.

Today I had put on my calendar to do a little cleaning in the attic because committing to entirely cleaning the attic would be roughly akin to me dedicating myself to swim to Canada.  How far is that anyway?  Between Cleveland and the nearest port in Canada? What is the temperature of the water, do you think? Who could follow me in a kayak to post on social media and what if I got encrusted in zebra mussels and ended up failing and looking all embarrassing in the process?

Before I stop everything and go look all that up (which would postpone the attic task for at least another hour), here is a poem I wrote while thinking about cleaning the attic. 


Tripping

Suitcases in the attic,
clouds above my head,
tempting me to daydream
trips
to magic spots
instead of writing in my journal
or picking up my clothes,
lifting me from daily doings
to visit
well . . .

who knows?

Monday, September 08, 2014

Writing from the Outside In


There are no less than six books titled Writing from the Inside Out, probably more.  The phrase is so universally accepted, it’s almost embarrassing to raise my hand and say, Yeah, but . . .

Yeah, but that’s not the way I write.  My writing process goes like this, I see something, an image or an interaction, and then it triggers a response in me (Are you kidding, me? Gross! Wonderful! or Horrifying) and then I write about it.  Writing from the outside in.

So, today I decided to revamp my blog (hope people like it) and challenge myself to write on it once a day for a week.  A new poem every day.  I know that other poets do this for a month or more, but the pressure! The pressure!  I thought, maybe I could handle a week.  What to write about? 

Well, I looked around and got as far as the perennial garden septembering in the front yard. 

Oh, yeah. It’s September! Time for kids to start school, pack up the shorts and sleeveless shirts, harvest tomatoes, and trim the barberry.  The barberry bush in the front perennial garden it all uneven and grows at astonishingly different rates.  Some branches bolt while others are content to pop out a few new leaves and call it a season.

Aesthetically I like a loosely rounded mound of bush, so I trim back the wild hairs.

Which is why a barberry bush is NOT like a classroom. 

Sheering

No matter how tempting to
round out the children
into a balanced arrangement,
to tidy the garden
with standardized hedges,
outlining a pre-ordered path,
a child’s bloom sequence
can’t be projected,
and set out in symmetrical rows.
Formalized flowerbeds
draw nodding praise from those
who have mostly forgotten,
the uneven feel of the earth
on bare feet and
that gardens grow
best and brightest
when we nurture and feed the roots
instead of confining ourselves
to relentlessly shearing the shoots.

Michael spent the morning weeding the garden and I spent the afternoon writing a poem about the garden.  We'll have to sort that out later.


Sunday, August 03, 2014

Back to School Poem Handout for Middle School

What follows is a rip off, plain and simple.  Michael White, whoever you are, there are copyright laws written to prevent you doing exactly what you did, copy my poems and put them on the internet.

That said, I kind of like your discussion questions, if they are indeed discussion questions.  I like the way they ask students to identify the speaker and speculate about the unknowns.  What I see when I look at these questions are a good map to poetry lit circles that teachers might use at the beginning of the school year to guide students into how to examine a poem closely and discuss it.  I am hoping (sincerely) NO one would consider these to be worksheets that students would complete in isolation, later to be graded. Please don't do that.  That would violate the laws of poetic justice, a much worse crime in my opinion.

So, here's the deal.  If you, Michael White whoever you are, feel free to violate my copyright protections, I think it is only fair to reprint your lessons here from your portfolio produced for your masters degree at Morehead here, for all to share.

http://michaelmwhite.com/pdf/holbrookhandout1.pdf





http://michaelmwhite.com/pdf/holbrookhandout2.pdf

Not only did Michael White (whoever you are) print these selected poems, he apparently uploaded one of my entire books onto some site that looks dangerous to me and I have a new computer and I don't want to mess with it.  The book only costs $9 and mystery download sites that require you to "join for FREE" can cost a lot more than $9 in aspirin.  But his handouts are safe.

Visiting his site is fascinating.  He also recommends using my poems as inspiration for short stories, I just couldn't figure out which poems he was talking about, but again, I like the idea.

Similar to musicians, most poets don't make the majority of our income from the sale of our poems.  We do make some, however, so I would appreciate people not uploading entire books, are you kidding me?  We make more from speaking engagements. Speaking engagements come from having books published, however, so we are all interested in keeping books in print.  Publishing entire books on the internet without permission is a definite no-no. (shame on you Michael White whoever you are).

But I do kind of like your discussion questions, reprinted here in direct violation of the copyright notice at the bottom of your website, Michael White whoever you are.  Fair's fair, my friend.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

A Cause and Effect Poem: Cooperation


Lurking on #IRAChat about cause and effect, I thought of this poem.

Cause and effect brings its consequences from world politics (you kill my people, I hate you and do my best to kill your people), to Main Street (you cheat me, I don't return to your store) right home to the kitchen (slice that bagel wrong and it's stitches for you!)  But no place is cause and effect more personal than in terms of friendship.

A little poem animation to share in classrooms, for discussion, as a writing prompt, or just because.

BTW, my book Wham! It's a Poetry Jam is soon to be released in a Kindle version by Boyds Mills Press.

Monday, January 27, 2014

Democracy Democracy: Toilet Paper and Mud Wrestling



This is kind of a cool thing for a poet; the word “democracy” is trending on my blog stats.  I rarely look at these things, but last week with a little too much time on my hands, I clicked on “keyword activity” on my blog stats and up popped the the D word.  So on the day President Obama will make his annual State of the Union address, let me address the word democracy.

It wasn’t just my (relentless) absent-mindedness that lead me to title two of my poems Democracy.  It was like going shopping with a friend where you both fall in love with the same dress, both purchase it, and promise to never wear the matchy matchy frocks to the same party.  It helps to seal this bargain if you live in different cities, states or countries. 

I wrote the following two poems 10 years apart and honestly thought they would never wind up in the universe, let alone the same classrooms.  But this is the age of the Internet and geez-o-man, a poet can’t get away with anything these days.

First let me say, I am a big proponent of democracy.  Unlike the review of the following poem that I read on some online forum, I do NOT believe that democracy means stealing toilet paper.  (Oh how I hope that was just a discussion starter).  Rather, I think it means that, despite our differences, we have the ability to get together as a community and see how we can make toilet paper available to all instead of a small minority hoarding all the toilet paper for themselves.  Toilet paper is a double ply metaphor in the US with its two ruling parties.

Originally performed at the 1996 National Poetry Slam, this poem was first published in Chicks Up Front (Cleveland State University Press).  I wrote this poem reflecting on my time as the Public Information Officer at the Cuyahoga Metropolitan Housing Authority.  Let me tell you, people in that organization deserve purple hearts for how they get beat up on a daily basis just trying to make democracy work.  Of course, as in any profession, a few of the executives, workers, and residents become crooks, stealing what they can for themselves, hang the needs of others.  But most are wearily trying to divide a miniature cupcake 57 different ways.

Democracy (1)

My office is government issue.
The basics, one metal desk, one chair,
a stack of folders,
four rubber stamps and loose paper in need of baling wire, or a match...
A gray office beside a multicolored room full of folks waiting on
government basics.

Thump.
Thump.
A large woman thumps, thumps. 
Thumps past my office.
Thump. Thump,
down the hall to the ladies room.
Sounds of water running followed by
the swing of the squeaky door,
it slaps against the wall
oozing toward a bumpy close.
Thump.  Thump.
I look up as she passes again.
Dark hallway.
Dark clothing.
Dark hands.
White toilet paper.
Thump. Thump.
I watch after her passing.
Thump. Thump.
She stole the toilet paper.
Also government issue,
two rolls per day.

Issued by
the same government that
murders mountains of forests for the
confusion of paper it takes to
purchase a pencil through
proper procurement procedures.
The same government that
offers tax abated housing to
for profit football teams and
levies income tax on where's-the-profit
unemployment compensation.
The same government that
issues food stamps for
koolaid, popsicles and tater tots
but not for toilet paper,
like it's some privilege
that poor folks don't need.
That same government issues us
two rolls per day,
93% of the days since our last 7% cut.
Two rolls.

I rub at the crow's feet which are deepening into my mother's face
and listen to her leaving.

She stole the toilet paper.
The clock silently mouths
that it's just 3:05.
I wait for a moment, reluctant to go
once more against the mountain,
knowing the thin air
makes me lightheaded.
Finally I move.

"Ma'am, did you take our toilet paper?"
She looks straight ahead,
the two rolls propped on knees flung wide.
She is slow to acknowledge my presence,
slow looking up at the self-conscious stand
I have taken beside her over-filled chair.
In a glance
she reminds me that I am too tall,
too thin, too well-dressed,
and too goddamned white.

"I need it," she replies.
And that need, I know,
is not entirely selfish,
that need embraces the needs
of her children,
her grandchildren,
maybe a neighbor.
But it does not embrace the needs
of her neighbors with whom
she shares this waiting room.
"I have to ask for it back," I say,
citing the needs of the others.
Reluctant herself,
she complies.

Practically speaking,
she is a republican.
I retreat to return the basics
to the necessary place,
dizzy with
democracy.

©1995 Sara Holbrook, Chicks Up Front (Cleveland State University Press)

This next poem I wrote to introduce a chapter on writing poetry in social studies class in my first professional book for teachers.  It has since appeared in a couple of anthologies, and my newest book High Impact Writing Clinics (Corwin, 2013), which also contains, among its 600 power point slides, one devoted to this poem along with a recording of me reading it.

Democracy (2)                      


Not a flagpole, pointing heavenward
with shining surety.
Not
any one set of colors
jerked cleanly up and down.
Not golden crusted apple pie.
Not
a grey pin-striped uniform.
Not
anybody’s mom.
            No.
If there is a metaphor
for democracy
it is a mud wrestling match,
grit in the eyes
feet a flying—
your ear in my teeth.
And the future?
The future belongs the muckers
still willing to get their hands
dirty,
who roll up their sleeves
to show their colors.

©2005 Sara Holbrook, Practical Poetry (Heinemann)


So, what do I really think about democracy?

Democracy is constantly evolving.  Stay tuned.